Music Monday: Pride and Prejudice – Apologize (OneRepublic)

Wickham wanted to run after her, to make her understand how much he had changed and how much she now meant to him, but he could not. His feet were rooted to the ground, and he could not seem to draw a full breath. He stood watching her, his heart aching a bit more with each step she took.

“Papa?” A small hand grasped his.

His knees buckled and he sank to the ground.

“Papa?” Louisa grabbed his face and looked at him.

He saw the fear in her eyes and smiled at her. “I am well. I just need a rest.”

She scrunched up her face and looked at him carefully. “You are not well. Mama is not well. And I am going to get help.” Before he could stop her, she had spun on her heels and was running.

“Louisa, come back,” he called as he pulled himself to his feet and soon overtook her. He snatched her up, crushing her to him. “Where are you going?”

“To get Aunt Kitty. She can make Mama feel better, and if Mama feels better, then you will feel better.” She thumped him on the chest. “You should have told her you loved her.” She thumped him again. “You should have told her. Why did you not tell her?”

“She would not have believed me,” he said softly as he stroked her hair.

“You still should have told her.” Her little body trembled as she gulped air between sobs.

[From Through Every Storm]
Published to YouTube by txaggie321 on May 17, 2007

Ah, now, that’s a rather melancholy song and excerpt to start our week, isn’t it? 🙂 But I had a good reason (in my opinion) for selecting both. Let me explain…

On Thursday night, I  finished the first draft of Assessing Mr. Darcy! Woohoo! I’m happy to be beginning the polishing process later today.

As I was writing this past week, I found myself needing to have a box of tissues handy, and as I was reaching for a tissue during one of those touching scenes, I thought to myself: “I don’t know if I have needed the tissue box handy so much while writing a story since I wrote Through Every Storm.”  Whether that is true or not, I have no way of proving. I get teary eyed often when writing. But, that is the reason I had to chose an excerpt from Through Every Storm for today’s post.

As far as the song choice goes…well, there are a couple of things in Assessing Mr. Darcy that require apologies to be given. The excerpt I will share below refers to one of those things.

Now, you should know that this might be the last excerpt I will share from that story since it is done. Hopefully, I will have something to share from a different story next Monday.

In other story news, I wrote on Mary Crawford’s story, as well as adding a few hundred words to my dictated short story. It was a very productive week which ended with a lovely visit from my in-laws on the weekend.

And I think that’s all the news there is to share about my current works in progress. I hope you have a wonderful first week of October, but before you go here’s…

AN EXCERPT FROM Assessing Mr. Darcy

Darcy descended the grand staircase at Netherfield slowly, one painful step at a time. His ankle was improving but placing weight on it was still difficult. Limping around a room with quick steps on a sore ankle was not so bad as attempting to walk down a flight of stairs.

“Are you going somewhere?” Bingley, still dressed in his riding clothes, leaned against the wall at the bottom of the stairs.

How Darcy wished he could have gone for a ride this morning. He was so dreadfully tired of being confined to the house. He had had his fill of his room. However, to venture out of it meant being tended to by Louisa and Caroline, and Caroline seemed just as determined as ever to attempt to sway his mind in her direction.

“Home,” Darcy replied.

“To town or Pemberley?”

“Town. I should l like to see my sister.”

Bingley nodded. “Will you, at least, have tea with me before you leave?”

“Not unless you wish it.” The man had not visited him in two days, and it was obvious from his expression that he was still not happy with Darcy. There was no way Darcy was going to impose on his friend if he was not welcomed to do so.

“I do,” Bingley replied, a small smile tipping his lips, giving away the fact that he was not as put out with Darcy as he pretended. “I do not wish for you to leave.”

Darcy blew out a breath as he completed his journey to the bottom of the staircase and lowered himself onto the second step to rest his ankle before he proceeded any further.

“It still hurts?” Bingley nodded to Darcy’s foot.

Darcy nodded. “It is not as strong as I would like it to be. I think it best to have my physician look at it when I am in town. Now that swelling has receded somewhat, he may see something that was missed before.”

“You are determined to leave then?”

Again, Darcy nodded. “My remaining will only hinder any chance you have of securing Miss Bennet.” He looked up at Bingley. “I did not do you harm intentionally, and I apologize for my temper.”

Bingley extended a hand to Darcy. “Come. Have tea with me. I would like to speak with you.”

Darcy looked at Bingley warily. “You would?” He allowed Bingley to help him rise from where he was seated.

“I would.” He took Darcy by the arm. “Lean on me if you need to.”

“Thank you,” Darcy replied and did just that. He leaned his weight partially on his friend as they moved down the hall to a small withdrawing room behind the larger sitting room.

“Caroline does not like this room,” Bingley whispered. “So, I have made it my own. It has only one smallish window and is therefore too dark for her liking. I do not mind the lack of sunshine so very much. I was about to eat some breakfast in here where it is free of female complaints when I was informed that your coach was being readied for travel.” He locked the door behind him. “I want to make certain my sister does not interrupt me for I would like to eat in peace,” he explained.

Bingley seated himself at a small round table that stood with four chairs near the window at the far end of the narrow room. There was a grouping of three cushioned chairs near the hearth and a ladder-backed chair near the door next to a cabinet which held a decanter and glasses. On the wall across from the hearth was a low bookcase with glass doors. Those pieces of furniture and a few paintings were the extents of the décor in the room.  It was a very pleasant room. With the lamp lit, this would be an excellent place to while away some hours with a book.

Darcy carefully took his place at the table. He was slowly learning how to sit down gracefully without causing his ankle too much discomfort. He was still a bit awkward, but not as awkward as he had been just yesterday morning.

“I saw Miss Bennet and Miss Elizabeth while I was riding today,” Bingley began as he poured tea for himself and Darcy.

“You did?” Darcy asked in surprise.

The left side of Bingley’s lips tipped up and his brows flicked upward and back down quickly. “I did. They were waiting for me.”

Darcy added sugar to his cup. “It was not an accidental meeting?”

Bingley shook his head. “No, Miss Elizabeth wished to speak to me and arranged it so that she could. I am not entirely certain how she knew I would be riding where I was, but she and her sister were waiting and called to me to join them.”

“Her brother must not know of this meeting,” Darcy grumbled.

“You are correct. He does not.” Bingley took a bite of his scone, following it with a bit of tea. “She asked about you.”

“Who asked about me?”

“Miss Elizabeth.”

Darcy could not help the small smile that crept onto his lips. Whether or not he had a hope of ever discovering if they would suit, he still found the information that she had inquired after him to be pleasing.

“She wanted to know if you are well enough for callers.”  

Darcy held his cup suspended in the air almost to his lips. “Is she thinking of calling on me?” What sort of lady called on a gentleman? It was supposed to be the other way around.

“She wishes to apologize.”

~*~*~

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Leenie Brown fell in love with Jane Austen's works when she first read Sense and Sensibility followed immediately by Pride and Prejudice in her early teens. As the second of five daughters and an avid reader, she has always loved to see where her imagination takes her and to play with and write about the characters she meets along the way. In 2013, these two loves collided when she stumbled upon the world of Jane Austen Fan Fiction. A year later, in 2014, she began writing her own Austen-inspired stories and began publishing them in 2015. Leenie lives in Nova Scotia, Canada with her two teenage boys and her very own Mr. Brown (a wonderful mix of all the best of Darcy, Bingley and Edmund with healthy dose of the teasing Mr. Tillney and just a dash of the scolding Mr. Knightley).

4 thoughts on “Music Monday: Pride and Prejudice – Apologize (OneRepublic)”

  1. Man… you came out blazing with both barrels today. The video and music was amazing. I loved Wickham and Lydia’s story. Yeah, that excerpt with his daughter was touching. And now this excerpt. Oh dear!! What is going on?? Darcy is injured and about to leave for London. His relationship with Bingley seems strained and Lizzy wants to call so she can apologize. What on earth has happened??? You have been busy. I am looking forward to all these new stories. Have a great first week of October.

    1. When I wrote my what is happening in the plot notes at the end of the chapter right before this excerpt it said: “Everyone is mad at Darcy” 🙂 It wasn’t anything bit that he did, but we all know how a few small words or actions can quickly blow up into something much larger. However, I like to write characters with more maturity than a teenager 😉 so most of the people involved with this incident will respond “appropriately.” Most. There is one who continues to hold onto this incident and acts rather foolishly (but with a reason, misguided reason that it is). And that creates the issues from this point until the end of the book.

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